Monday, January 23, 2006
Tuesday, I was much better in spirits. My problems that day actually began on evil Monday. The vision in my right eye was slightly blurred and I was seeing halos around light which is scary. I decided to forgo the contacts for the day and wear the dreaded glasses that make me look like such a nerd. :) I had to take an hour an a half from work to visit the eye doctor who seemed quite perplexed as to the reason for the corneal edema (swelling) he found in my eye. So I was told to skip the contacts until my vision improves, call if my vision gets worse, or else come back in a week. My grandmother is legally blind due to complications from type I diabetes and I am reminded on a weekly basis how her life is impaired by vision loss so I take eye health very seriously.
And here we are on Wednesday. I am glad to say that my vision has improved slightly though I am still not seeing 20/20 in that eye. Today it seems nothing intelligent can come out of my mouth. Perhaps I should take a vow of silence, I'm sure Brandon wouldn't mind that at all. Also the "scatter-brained-ness" from Monday hasn't gone away. I'm not used to this! I want my brain to go back to how it always is.
I know that in the grand scheme of things most of these problems are small potatoes, but I am glad to have this outlet of sorts. And I take solace in the fact that "tomorrow is another day."
Friday, January 20, 2006
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Part of the procedure was to fill my abdomen with carbon dioxide so the scope would have more room and an easier view. An added "bonus" is that some of the gas is still trapped inside, which is more painful then the actual incisions. It makes taking deep breaths impossible and walking around painful. But I will persist, the walking helps me recover faster.
The verdict is that I do have endometriosis. I have a mild case so there wasn't too many lesions to remove. I had a particularly large bit on the ligament that holds my uterus in place so that explains why certain activities I had begun to cease were so painful. I will go back to the doctor in 2 weeks to discuss the treatment options and to review the "awesome" pictures of my insides. I am grateful for the outcome; grateful to know what has been bothering me and thankful that it doesn't seem to be severe.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
I am having a laparoscopy to determine whether or not I have a chronic illness called endometriosis and if they find it they will try to take care of it then. The outcome will produce mixed feelings. If I have it, it will be a relief to know what has been causing all of the pain for the last 10 years, but at the same time some fear for the progression of it and what that might mean as far as children. I am somewhat prepared for the outcome after finding out a few months ago that endo is what the doctor thinks it is. I have done much research on the illness. If it turns out I don't have endo it will mean going to various specialists to find out what is causing all the pain. I'm not looking forward to that.
Whatever the outcome, I know that God is watching over me and taking care of me. Knowing this does bring me a lot of comfort, if I didn't have Him in my life I would be a real mess. This blog is a nice little outlet, I feel much better already after venting my frustration.
Friday, January 6, 2006
Am I disappointed that I am no longer interested in pursuing a career in my degree field? No, college taught me much more than how to design a "pretty" building. I will say that I am open to whatever may come my way. Like many others I am searching for my purpose and meaning always remembering that it isn't how God fits into my plans, but how I fit into God's plans.
Tuesday, January 3, 2006
In March my older brother will be getting married to a wonderful woman, Jessica. I always joke that she doesn't have to marry him, we will keep her and get rid of Jeff. Then at the end of March they are moving away to Arizona. It will be an adventure to start their life away from family, I am kind of jealous. ;) There is nothing like being newly married and having family CONSTANTLY telling you how to live your life.
So that is the outlook for the next couple of months. I look forward to the unforeseen adventures that will come our way.