How is this for unnerving? I found out this morning that I am scheduled for minor surgery on Friday. FRIDAY!!!!!!! Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh, I'm not prepared for this mentally!!! Some warning would have been nice. It turns out the surgery coordinator was out sick and someone else was supposed to call and let me know. Well it is a good thing work is so understanding. So tomorrow I go in for pre-op lab work and signing consent and talking to the anesthesiologist. The only "surgery" I have ever had was to have my wisdom teeth removed. Granted this is only minor surgery, but I am still nervous.
I am having a laparoscopy to determine whether or not I have a chronic illness called endometriosis and if they find it they will try to take care of it then. The outcome will produce mixed feelings. If I have it, it will be a relief to know what has been causing all of the pain for the last 10 years, but at the same time some fear for the progression of it and what that might mean as far as children. I am somewhat prepared for the outcome after finding out a few months ago that endo is what the doctor thinks it is. I have done much research on the illness. If it turns out I don't have endo it will mean going to various specialists to find out what is causing all the pain. I'm not looking forward to that.
Whatever the outcome, I know that God is watching over me and taking care of me. Knowing this does bring me a lot of comfort, if I didn't have Him in my life I would be a real mess. This blog is a nice little outlet, I feel much better already after venting my frustration.