Thursday, October 30, 2008

I Am Getting a New Job

It starts in about 8 months.

The hours will be long and sometimes difficult, but I hear the pay is excellent.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008


We have spent the last 2 years listening to egotistical windbags spout about how great they are. I am so ready for this election to be over. I seriously hope they don't start campaigning earlier than ever before for the next election.

In the last couple of days I have found two things that disturb me:

We have been getting the many pre-recorded phone messages from candidates. Only now they have gotten personal. One recording addressed Brandon specifically by name. The other message started out by saying, "I see you haven't voted yet..." I thought that was nobody's business but mine. I voted early once, I had to stand in line for over an hour. So ever since I have voted on election day, around the corner from where I live, where I stood in lines for less than 5 minutes each time.

The political ads on television have been mostly ignorable. And I find that main stream media has lost touch with reality. Their political talk is merely entertainment to me, I get my news from many other sources. However, I saw one station running a political commercial talking about bringing "honest" reporting to the people so we could "vote with our hearts." Hello, I would much prefer to vote with my mind. Voting with feelings has no place in politics. These candidates are on a job interview, we are the interviewers. Since when are job applicants chosen based on feelings?

Enough is enough, give the American people some peace.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008


The season is really starting to change around here. Autumn is probably my favorite season though I like them all for different reasons.

I love the changing of the leaves. Here they change rather late and not in the vivid colors I have seen elsewhere. This weekend we are taking a trip to the hill country where there is a bit more color. Eventually I would love to go up and visit Maine during the fall.

The air is becoming cooler and drier. I have been able to open the windows to allow fresh air in. It has turned my 9 year old cat exceptionally frisky, she seems to love the cooler weather and tears around the house with new energy. Exercising outside has become far more pleasant though seasonal allergies are starting to kick in.

I decided this year to make pumpkin recipes using fresh puree. The smell of pumpkin baking in the oven was divine. And it didn't take long to cut, bake, and puree it. It is definitely better than the canned version. Since Brandon is still trying to put on some weight, I made him a fresh pumpkin pie which he has been enjoying for the last week. I have reserved puree waiting to make my now legendary (at least by family standard) cranberry pumpkin bread.

Thanksgiving is coming up and it will give us a chance to see family members we haven't seen in a while. I will get to meet my new niece and hopefully get to use her as a model for some photography experimentation.

It won't be long until winter and Christmas are upon us. And before I know it, 2009. This year has flown by much too quickly. I guess that's what happens when one gets older. (Sigh)

Monday, October 20, 2008

Welcome Miss Ella

Miss Ella made her debut this morning weighing just over 9lbs.  She was originally due at the end of the month and Lindi was scheduled for a C-section at the end of this week.  Apparently Ella thought everyone else had a schedule but she was sticking to hers.  There are no good pictures yet and I have yet to hear what big brother Collin thinks of her.  We will be waiting until Thanksgiving to meet her since they live over 6 hours away by car.  Congratulations to Bryan, Lindi, Collin, and of course Ella!

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Thanks For Listening

While in Sunday school this morning we were discussing difficult decisions we have had to make and how they effected us.  I shared that we were in a very difficult decision process right now dealing with infertility.  We have to decide what is right for us, how far we would go, what is right or wrong not to mention all the emotions dealing with the illness in general.  Brandon shared his frustration that he never anticipated having to spend money to have children when most couples can have them for free.  One of the women piped up that children aren't free.  Really? I never would have guessed.  Brandon was saying that most couples don't have to pay money to conceive children, most couples get to do that part for free. 

This is part of the reason why it is so hard to share infertility struggles with others.  They don't understand what you are going through and yet you want to share hoping it may encourage others in similar situations.  We don't share in great detail because some of the issues surrounding treatment are controversial or just plain personal.  No one anticipates being faced with infertility.  No one says, I would just love to take away all of the surprise and anticipation and replace it with constant tests, invasive exams, and concerted efforts only to end up being impregnated by some doctor or technician like I was some kind of lab experiment.  And the process just might have to be repeated many times.  I realize we can't live in a fantasy world and real life isn't always romantic, but I sure didn't ever think other people besides my husband and I would be involved in that process.

I never said life was easy or fair but I know thousands of others are going through what we are.  If I can encourage just one person, if I can make just one person feel better knowing that I understand their plight, sharing my journey will not be in vain.  That's why I keep on.  It may sound like whining, and it may be just that, but bottling it all up isn't healthy either.  The difficulties in life are what teach us, grow us, and give us strength to face the further challenges our lives will bring.  I will be able to look back and know that we made it through and that our Father God never left us on our own to deal with it.