(Now that family has been told, I can share my reaction.)
I have been questioning myself for the last few days because I didn't think it could be true. Nothing has seemed too out of the ordinary except feeling suddenly, extremely flushed at times. In what seems to be our never ending quest to become parents, I have become quite in tune with my body's every twinge. But I had to wait until I knew I was definitely late to test because I didn't want to waste money.
Those 2 little lines showed up immediately and changed our world.
Oh my!! I started shaking after seeing the result. I almost can't describe the emotions I'm feeling. After nearly two years of trying and no success I was more than a little sad and frustrated. Now I am scared and excited and overwhelmed all at the same time. God has entrusted us to care for one of His children. And this is no small task. Sometimes I feel I can't even manage my own life much less someone else's. But I have confidence the Lord knows what He is doing. (and I will keep reminding myself of that fact throughout the years to come.)
Brandon said the worst part of infertility treatment would be the lack of surprise. (and the concerted efforts with many other people involved in the process.) Well, he got his wish after all. Last week as we were discussing having children he mentioned it was probably a good thing I wasn't pregnant now because he didn't think he could handle that on top of all the stress he's been dealing with at work. After telling him the news I grinned and said, God does have a sense of humor. And he knows just what we can handle even when we don't.
So we get to start on a new chapter in our journey. There will be many bumps in the road but those bumps will shape us and grow us. We aren't alone in this.