Monday, May 17, 2010

Baby Brief

Baby has been growing.  How do I know? I finally have started to as well, though I still have only gained a couple of pounds. I joke that my body is merely redistributing.  I am now in week 19.  At about week 17 I finally popped out a little.  I am still getting mixed reactions.  Some who are still finding out I am pregnant are shocked to find out how far along I am and then ask, "So when are you going to start showing?"  If I where something a little more clingy I get smiles and comments on my "cute little belly."

I made my first maternity wear purchases.  I had been using the rubber band button-hole trick with my usual jeans (and still do) but figured maternity pants would be a bit more comfy.  I was lucky to find some long length pants in the actual store.  That rarely happens for me.  I have dreaded having to shop for maternity stuff for that reason.  Unfortunately the jeans kind of fall down so perhaps I need to wait longer or just continue to hitch them up.  I am getting by wearing my usual dresses and skirts to church for now.  I'm not going to spend a fortune on maternity clothes and I won't be buying things until I need them.

I felt first movements from baby when I was about 13 weeks along.  But they were very sporadic and faint.  At 18 weeks is when I started feeling movements more regularly.  Such an awesome feeling.  Baby is especially active when I eat, as if to say, "that's good, more please." It's kind of funny that I won't be feeling anything, then I take the first couple of bites and get some kicks.  It happens without fail.  I am still sometimes surprised by an especially hard kick.  When it happens I reply with, "Hi baby," which greatly amuses Brandon, he thinks it's cute.  I can't wait until he can feel movement too, I really want him to share in this experience especially since we lost Sarah so soon he never really got attached to her.

We are working on our own baby project.  I like the idea of store bought pregnancy journals but I can't find one that fits all my picky, creative criteria.  So we are making our own.  We are writing out all the important dates and milestones as well as notes and letters we want to leave for our child.  We plan to scan our writings in and combine them with pictures to eventually create a book.  That way, when grown up, baby will have thoughts in mom and dad's hand, something both of us would have treasured.

June 1 marks the "big" ultrasound.  Brandon wants to be surprised upon birth but has generously said that if I really want to know, I can find out and keep the secret.  Everyone says I won't be able to but I know I can.  I haven't been referring to the baby as "he or she" but only baby and would continue to do so.  But I know I would get lots of pressure from family.  They have all taken in turn to tell me they can keep a secret too. LOL yeah, right! So I haven't decided what to do yet.  Either way I can't wait to see baby moving around and "waving" to us again.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Mama Midna

With a baby on the way we have often wondered how Midna will react.  With Chu we don't have to worry, she is fairly distrustful of small humans and generally keeps a safe distance.

Today we got a small preview when Jessica and Emilie paid us a visit. I have to admit I was more than a little nervous because this wasn't my own child.  (Funny how that always works.)

When they came in she placed the car seat on a chair.  Both kitties came in to investigate.  They were both up on their hind legs sniffing and wondering what was in there.  Once Emilie started making baby noises in her sleep, Chu took up her post at a safe distance in the doorway to our room.  Better to make a quick escape if this baby "tried" anything.  LOL

Later on Emilie woke up and I was holding her as mama made a bottle.  She grew impatient and started to cry.  Midna ran up to me, looked up with wide eyes, and let out of very concerned meow.  As I sat down on the couch she jumped up and began to affectionately rub her head on Emilie's outstretched hand.  Her concern was adorable, she was acting like a little mama, trying to comfort the baby.

It will be fun introducing Midna to "her own" baby.  I have great hopes that the two of them will become friends in time.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Uncomfortable

I still want to know how it happened and what I'm supposed to do.  I feel out of my league.  In late February I was approached, my name had been submitted and qualified to run for board of directors at church.  After much prayer I decided that if this is where God wanted me to serve, then I would be elected.  I came to find out that out of 36 of us who were submitted only 5 of us accepted nominations to run...for 5 positions.  When Brandon was nominated last year there were about 12 nominees for 2 positions. (He wasn't elected.) Needless to say, we were all elected to a 2 year term.

I have to say I felt a bit panicked.  God hadn't put Brandon in this position and with his smarts and wisdom, well I don't come close. What if during meetings I have nothing to contribute?  What if I have no good ideas? But then again, if this is where God wants me to be, I have to seek Him for wisdom to help me through.

He has been pushing me into uncomfortable leadership positions in the last few year, placing me outside of my comfort zone.  When approached to work with the junior high kids a couple of years ago, I felt scared, I hadn't worked with children in years, how was I supposed to relate to one of the most difficult age periods?  But everything has worked out and I have connected with and learned so much from 13 and 14 year-olds. I'm in awe, who knew that some of them had so much wisdom?  

My life was changed a few years ago by a class on personal finance, so much so that I wanted to share it with others.  They didn't offer the class at our church so I found myself put into a position where I would have to stand up and lead a class of adults.  *shudder*  I still don't find it any easier to get up in front of others and speak, but this is something I care about and it has impacted others as well.  I so enjoy them coming up to me to share their victories and updates.

It is so natural for me to think I'm not good enough, I'm not qualified, to run myself down.  That is one of the hardest battles I have fought for many years.  The enemy of my soul knows how to get to me, he whispers these things to me to the point I start believing.  You would think that after so many years I would automatically recognize the voice.  I do recognize the voice, I do realize it isn't from me.  I am working, I know I can't do it alone, to not listen.

And I have to keep reminding myself that I am doing God's work. That I have to seek His wisdom and strength so that I may be of good use as an adviser in the next 2 years.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Mystery Baby is Revealed

I got a text message this morning at 8.  My brother and sister-in-law welcomed their third child today.  I've been calling their baby "mystery baby" since they were waiting to find out.  Mystery baby is a boy! Now I've got one of each this year, a new niece and a new nephew. That puts us at 8 nephews and 4 nieces. Dillon weighed in at a whopping 10 lbs, 14 oz. at 39 weeks! That's a half grown baby.  I can't wait to see some pictures.

Happy Birthday Dillon!