Friday, September 3, 2010

Out of Control

Lately I feel completely restless.  I get irritated with the littlest things. While dusting today I got completely fed up with the cat hair redepositing on every surface after I carefully wiped it clean.  I love my kitty-girls but seriously, their fur is getting on my nerves.  Also they have both been acting up a lot lately.  I keep finding Midna on the counters in the kitchen.  I spray her with the water bottle to get her off only to find her back there minutes later. I have also walked into the kitchen to find Chu just sitting there on the counters when she doesn't normally do that.  They have both alternately been throwing up on our comforter for the last 3 days.

I can't find the motivation to do much of anything lately and I get angry with myself. Things need to be cleaned, stuff needs to be organized, we need to buy a dresser in the next couple of weeks, I want to get caught up on everything now while I am still able to....

ETA:  In the midst of my ramblings, trying to release the overwhelming feelings of frustration, my loving husband came home from work.  I apologized to him in advance, told him I couldn't figure out where the anger was coming from.  I felt like I was going to explode. I haven't felt so out of control in such a long time and the feeling scared me. He told me to lay aside the tasks I had only half completed and said I needed to leave the house and get away for a while. So he suggested we go see if Galveston was still there.  It isn't a long drive and we haven't been down there since the hurricane almost 2 years ago. Even though we didn't stay for long it was a nice distraction walking along the beach.  Our little trip did the trick, getting my mind away from all the negativity and it also had the benefit of wearing me out.  We both slept very well that night.

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